I have always said that no matter what I did, I would live my love in the ever pressing moment. I didn’t want to look back on my life and realize that I didn’t do something that I really wanted to do. I didn’t want to live my life thinking about the woulda, coulda, shoulda that didn’t happen. I realized last year that I was somewhat living my life as that person.
When I was in high school, I wanted to be a Journalist. After my creative writing class in college, I wanted to be a published Author and Editor. The common theme was writing. I wanted to do something that showcased my writing.
I’ve been receiving kudos for my writing since I was 14 years old. I’ve been writing poems, short stories and novels for years. I would just tuck them away for later. I started that little venture when I was 19. “Later” came to a halt when my 17 year old told me that I wasn’t living my dream or doing what I wanted to do. This was after a conversation that we were having about working towards goals and working hard. I was telling him that he needed to see his dream and do everything in his power to achieve it. Realization of dreams doesn’t come from sitting back and waiting for them to come to fruition. You have to put the time in and work at it.
Those were the things that I basically was telling him. His next question floored me. “Mom, you love writing. You are really good at it. Everyone enjoys your stories. So, why aren’t you living your dream and writing?”
Done and done!
It was just that simple. I had already begun researching how to self-publish because it was always at the back of my mind. I did more research to find out the best sites and approach. Even though it has been, and will probably be for a while, a slow moving horse. I’m doing it.
Now, the reason for the post. The balance thing. I have so many things that I want to do. One might say, focus on one and let that do its thing before moving on to the next thing. It has never been how I do things. I’m an all or nothing type of female. I’ve always had that in me. When I do things, I do things big. I am an Author, yes. I have a monthly newsletter, yes. Now, I have started a page to let people know that I am offering editing services as well.
Will I stop there? NOPE!! I have a creative mind and as long as I have the support that I am continuing to have then I can reach for the stars. About the balance thing… I find that it comes when I take a breath and determine what is the most important thing for me to do right now.
Should I be writing? Should I be editing? Should I be pulling together info for my newsletter? When I take a moment to organize myself, my thoughts and my schedule I find that I am not such frazzled, frenzied, fretting Freda. It’s those moments when I allow things to get away from me that I delve into that personality. She’s not the nicest person to be around.
Balance: Achievable. Believable. Receivable.